This is bad but I really don’t like one of my friend’s friend. Like I don’t know why but I don’t like her at all. She annoys me and I never have talked to her. I think she knew my friend longer than me but my gut just gets all knotted whenever I see anything that has to do with her. It annoys me. Like I don’t like her so much that there was a post on another site from my friend that involved her and I added something to my profile just to get it off my feed when I went on the app. I know I shouldn’t dislike her since I don’t actually talk to her but…

I can’t help it… 

And I never plan on telling my friend that either because it’ll start a fight so another secret  (hint why I didn’t say names or anything because my friend follows me on here.)

I like how people tell me to open up and not to be scared to because it will not change how they think of me or care about me and blah blah blah. THEN I end up opening up only to be… IGNORED. like seriously? I feel like everything you have said to me was nothing but a lie. yes I am raging on tumblr because I don’t want people I know asking me all sorts of questions on facebook that I honestly don’t wanna tell them about. I did nothing to be treated like this… I shouldn’t have listen to people. I knew I should of kept it all in because then I wouldn’t fuck up things. I deserve at lest and answer on where we stand, and if you still wanna be in my life or not.. but no I am being ignored at lest that is what it feels like. Why tell me I am all you pretty much have but I do what you ask and opened up to try and make our friendship and shit stronger to trust you more with my thoughts and feelings only for you to ignore me ALL day… what did I do wrong to deserve this treatment? is it because I care and love you? am I in the wrong for ALWAYS being there for you and thinking “hey he might like me too”? I am sorry I am human and I have feelings…ah key word HUMAN. I get hurt too and upset… I just don’t know what to do anymore. I feel lost to be honest… I should just shut up now and not even continue.. before this will probably make things worse but since it seems like I can’t really open up to you or anyone really…what am I suppose to do? <//3